Coil

So it seems the key I thought would unlock the remnants of the chains that once bound me slipped out of my hands again. Oddly enough, I didn't feel any regret. Rather, I'd realized then that the chains have rusted away, and that I could detach them myself.

I've had an interesting conversation with a friend the same day. I pointed out to her that I found some girl there cute, and she proceeded to accuse me of not being able to stick to one "crush", as she put it. My defense was that we differed in our definitions of "crush", "admiration", and "attraction". For me, having a crush on someone is just admiring said person for certain qualities they possess, while not necessarily being drawn to said person. Attraction would then be a stronger form of having a crush, for it would include being drawn to the crush. From this, maybe, just maybe, I would define falling in love to be a state of perpetual attraction to a person without knowing the reason/s why, because that seems to be what I am currently experiencing. But how could I even dare to define what is love? baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more I'm surprised I'm even trying while only having slept for one or two hours at most.

But I kinda really fucked up yesterday though.